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When I woke up last spring with the idea to start another blog that would use my channeling to help others, I felt a spark ignite within me.
Six years ago, I was told by a psychic channelor that I would someday be able to channel spirits if I wanted to. To which I said, "Come again now?!?" At the time I was working full-time as the Chief Operating Officer for my family's real estate development company, juggling life's demands (not especially well), and feeling like being busy was a norm I would never see the end of. I was an achiever, not an ‘over-achiever’ but a highly motivated, strong-willed, aspiring leader who always held the highest standards for myself and those around me. I loved my job. It was fulfilling and making me more and more money.
Before the reading I had never heard of a channelor. I knew of psychics, mediums, and tarot card readers, but couldn't really tell you the difference between them all. For some reason however, I was never a skeptic. I watched the show "Long Island Medium" on TLC and thought- ‘she seems like a total kook with her long fake nails and crazy hair, but she can't be making this stuff up!’ I always believed in this kind of stuff (even when it came with a Long Island accent) and found it super fascinating. That's why I was thrilled and excited when my mother-in-law gave me a channeling session for Christmas in 2018…
I had never heard of a channelor and didn't know what to expect. Her name was Donna and she lived in Waterbury, VT. She was a seamstress by day, and on the side she did "channeling", which I now know means that she can connect with spirits and allow them to talk through her. She has multiple spirit guides, but one came through that day to talk with me. She immediately began telling me about a multitude of past lives I have lived…how Tom had been my brother in one and my mother-in-law had been my mother in another. I had heard of the concept of past lives, but had never thought they applied to me. I was brought up Christian and that concept was just not something that was discussed. I didn't look at it as bad, just never really thought about it before. The whole session lasted about an hour and a half, and by the end of it my mind was completely blown. My experience that day changed my life forever.
The ironic part is that my spiritual journey was already well on its way when this experience happened. About a year before my experience with the psychic, I had begun to feel the pangs of living, as I know now, unconsciously. I didn't have the word for it then, but I had begun noticing that I was doing things and not feeling good about them. They were things I had always done, in ways that were completely normal to me, but I could no longer ignore the feeling that I didn't like myself when I acted like that. I felt self-loathing, confusion, stuck-ness, anger, and shame. I was eager to understand myself and how I showed up in the world. I had never questioned this before and really just followed along with the way my parents had done things. But between work and two young kids, I never had time, and thus the patterns ensued. Still, I knew something had to give.
I began experimenting with meditation and shortly after that I stumbled onto spiritual leader, Eckhart Tolle on Oprah's SuperSoul podcast. He opened my mind to the concept of our thoughts not always being true. Then I had the session with the psychic and everything I once thought about myself came into question. What had been of interest to me before, suddenly went into overdrive and I plunged myself into the world of spirituality.
I had a million questions and not enough time to read. What is channeling? How would I even begin doing that? What are spirit guides? What is a medium? What is Buddhism? Why do we suffer? What is Reiki? Are we really ‘all one’ as many like to say? What are chakras? Do past lives really exist? What is intuition? How do I trust it? Who was Jesus? Why do people get cancer? What are ghosts? What is my ego? What is all of this for anyway??
For the past few years, I have pondered these questions (and many others) and discovered so much about the world, the universe, and most importantly, who I am. I figured out that I am a creative at heart. I love helping people. I see the beauty in my surroundings. I am able to communicate with spirits, including my Guides and passed away loved ones. I am a natural leader. I believe in the power of our thoughts. I am hard on myself. I believe the universe will always give us what we need. I believe all religions are essentially the same. I have the ability, as we all do, to change. I am still discovering and will always be a seeker. I am so grateful for where I have been and where I am headed.
While my inner world unfolded, I was also fumbling around trying to figure out what to do with it all. I felt a strong sense that I wanted to pursue another business, make money, and feel that beautiful passion of building something again. In 2021, I launched Spirit Love, which I hoped would be a way to help people by using my spiritual gifts. It has allowed me to dabble in all sorts of spiritual pursuits, including live mediumship readings, leading Women’s Circles, creating energy paintings, working with Energy Healing techniques, chakra healing, and so much more. However, as I moved through the different modalities and tried so many new ways of connecting to others, I never found one that truly spoke to me. I was able to help some people, but nothing ever really stuck or launched or felt right, add each of the different pursuits would eventually die out.
The one consistent piece, however, has been my writing. I began writing blog posts about my life before I launched Spirit Love, and I have continued to write for myself and others ever since. Much of my channeled work with passed away loved ones (mediumship) has come through writing. I have filled countless journals since beginning this journey, all with messages from spirit, updates on life, feelings, ideas, and drawings.
When I woke up last spring with the idea to start another blog that would use my channeling to help others, I felt a spark ignite within me. Though I know there is a possibility that this is just another dead end that may eventually fizzle out, I have decided to take that chance and launch a new blog, dedicated to my writing. It is called Bee and the Butterfly. The writings will include stories about my life, written by Bee, as well as channeled messages from Spirit, written by the Butterfly. The full story of the name will have to be for another time. For me, it is important to make space for both the earthly struggles of everyday and the heavenly thoughts from spirit that help me move through those struggles. I envision at some point I may take questions or requests from readers, that I will answer by channeling, much like an advice column. But for now, I am starting with my own stuff and will go from there.
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To all my friends and family who have supported me and encouraged me through this journey, your love has propelled me more than you will ever know.
With love and gratitude,
Lindsay
